I took care of it, of course. I did what have to be done in order to keep living our lives apart, without conflict and injuring innocent ones in the process. I may be a little mean and heartless when in duty, but you have to be when in these situations.
Love is such a messy word for you to call all of this. This wasn't even affection for starters. You messed up big thinking that our short history meant anything but such a strong word.
I'm not sorry.
Stop crying.
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I saw her yesterday, near my favourite tea shop.
She had her usual dark, beautifully styled short hair. Her clothes were relaxed and sporty if I remember correctly. She was with an old woman doing grocery shopping without a mask on.
I couldn't help but stare, and when I noticed her staring back my heart skipped a beat.
I swear time went still for a whole minute between us. It couldn't be, could it?
I practically ran away from there with my heart in my throat. I could have said something, but what? How's your shopping doing nowadays?
I swear that girl is a Scorpio or a fire sign. That look could tell. Ugh.
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I'm so relieved you're doing better. I'm keeping your promise, "don't worry, I'll never let you down"
I mean I know you won't, but your ego makes you lie to me sometimes. You hide stuff thinking you're sneaky enough but you don't pass all of my tests. I always discover them no matter how well you hide them.
I'll always have you and your well being in my mind. You don't have to try to be small just to not be the center of my priorities.
Also, small isn't a word that describes you. Is the total opposite.
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I dreamt that you gifted me a sunflower bouquet and said so many love words my soul felt in heaven, so soft and relieved to be free.
Your love frees me like you have no idea, even in my dreams. Even if you wouldn't ever dare say those beautiful words in this reality, for the whole space to hear out loud.
I feel less cold. I feel loved, happy, blessed by the moon.
I can't resist but cry. Love is still so difficult for me to understand, but your definition and simplicity make it so easier.